Chapter 10 - Dinner With My Father

My father lived in a house that was far less impressive than Sylvia always imagined.
There were no marble columns.
No ballroom.
No gold staircase.
Just books.
Photographs.
Old furniture.
And a kitchen that still had the chipped blue mug my mother used every morning before she died.
I stood in the doorway holding it.
âI thought you threw this away.â
My father shook his head.
âI tried once.â
âWhat happened?â
âI took it out of the trash ten minutes later.â
I smiled.
So did he.
We ate soup at the kitchen table.
No staff.
No polished silver.
No rules about standing.
My father watched me sit down as though the act itself meant something.
For both of us, it did.
âI owe you an apology.â
He said it before dessert.
I looked up.
âI thought if I pushed hard enough, you would see David the way I did.â
âYou called him ambitious and shallow.â
âI was being polite.â
I laughed unexpectedly.
Then my smile faded.
âYou also told me marrying him would be the worst mistake of my life.â
My father nodded.
âThat was cruel.â
âIt made me want to prove you wrong.â
âI know.â
He looked down.
âI confused being correct with being helpful.â
For a Chief Justice, admitting that seemed almost painful.
âIâm sorry too.â
He looked at me.
âI knew you didnât trust him.â
âYou didnât have to agree with me.â
âI stopped calling because I was angry.â
âYou were allowed to be angry.â
âI wasnât allowed to disappear.â
His eyes softened.
âNo.â
Silence settled between us.
Then I asked the question I had avoided for years.
âWhy didnât you come to my wedding?â
He took a long breath.
âBecause David came to see me three days before it.â
I froze.
âWhat?â
âHe asked me to stay away.â
My hand tightened around the spoon.
âHe told me you said my presence would turn the ceremony into a security spectacle.â
I stared at him.
âI never said that.â
âI know that now.â
My heartbeat began pounding.
âWhat else did he say?â
âThat you wanted to build a life without the Mercer name.â
I stood so quickly my chair scraped backward.
My father rose too.
âHe lied to both of us.â
âYes.â
The room blurred.
David had not merely benefited from our estrangement.
He had engineered part of it.
âI thought you chose your pride over me.â
My voice broke.
My father stepped closer.
âI thought you chose distance from me.â
Years of anger collapsed in one sentence.
He hugged me.
I had forgotten how it felt.
For several seconds, I became twenty-five again.
Before David.
Before Sylvia.
Before fear became routine.
Then my father whispered something that settled permanently inside me.
âWe lost years.â
May you like
He held me tighter.
âBut we are not giving him another day.â